Why I Write

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I don’t think I need to tell you that books mean the world to me. This is an obvious fact about me, and doesn’t need much of an explanation.

My love for reading very quickly bred a love of writing. I always enjoyed writing. I wrote ridiculous amounts of poetry as a teen and young adult that should never be published unless it’s going to be done in a comedic sense. Writing though, is not about perfection. Books on every level are a very subjective form of art. There are so many popular titles out in the world that I just did not enjoy. Just like there are many that I love, that others dislike as well. To be a writer you must first realize that not everyone is going to love your work, and the second thing to realize is that there will always be someone better than you. Seems daunting doesn’t it? It’s okay. We are all in this together. While these things may turn many people off from ever writing a single word of a story, it makes me want to tell my stories even more. So Why do I write?

To be a writer you must only do ONE thing, and that is to write. YOU HAVE TO WRITE. I consider myself a writer. I have spent countless hours writing thousands upon thousands of words. I am in the process of editing one book, while also throwing myself head first into research for another one. I have ideas written on notecards, notebooks, iPhone notes, and even a sandwich bag because my mind is constantly telling me stories. No this is not my way of admitting that I am crazy, although, I think to be a writer you need to have at least some dose of insanity somewhere within you.

What Inspires me?

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I get asked this sometimes by friends or family. I think what originally inspired me was stories like Harry Potter. That series specifically burst open my imagination. The detailing, and just unique story made me realize I had characters and stories of my own running around in my head. Characters with loud personalities matching those of the people who I have crossed paths with. Characters with personalities matching my own. Quiet, shy, and ready to kick ass if necessary.

I have always had notebooks scattered about the house. Piles of them telling different stories of my own reality. It was only in the past 5-6 years that I realized that I wanted to write about the other characters my imagination decided to introduce into my daily life.

Possibly the biggest inspiration behind my writing, really the biggest of them all is Portugal. I was born there you see. In a beautiful city called Viseu, where at the age of 30 I have only set foot on its streets a handful of times. rua-direitaI was raised so far away from it, far from it’s cobble stoned sidewalks, it’s gorgeous parks, and beautiful architecture, that for most of my adult life I’ve had a hunger–no, an unstoppable desire to become better acquainted with a land that I barely know, and yet love unconditionally.

A place where family has grown, aged, and lived without me within their immediate bubble. I am inspired to create worlds around that longing, and the history of Portugal. I can’t explain it any further here. One day, with a little bit of luck and a whole lot of hard work, I will be able to share the stories this feeling has inspired.

Till then, I leave you with these words:

Telling a story isn’t about perfection. It’s about expression, emotion, and that feeling that you’re making something bigger than yourself.
I write almost every day. None of it perfect. Never let that stop you because it will never stop me.
 

Mr.Penumbra’s 24-Hour Bookstore – Book Review

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Mr. Penumbra’s 24- Hour Bookstore was a sweet sweet surprise. When I picked it up, I had sort of heard about it, but couldn’t actually pin point from where, but something about the idea of a 24 hour book store totally grabbed my attention. My curiosity gave me a pleasant surprise, just like the main character in the book. You will be happy to know that this book review, like most of my book reviews contain zero spoilers. I know a lot of reviewers like dissecting a book, like it’s a frog in a high school science class, but I like to stick to the basics, and how the book made me feel.

Mr.Penumbra’s 24 Hour Bookstore follows Clay Jannon, who loses his job, and out of natural human curiosity ends up working the night shift at this really quirky bookstore. From there, he discovers that there is just so much more to the store and its peculiar customers. He begins to dig deeper and finds himself taking part in a quest just like the heroes in his favorite novels.

I noticed that a few people I follow, found this book to be boring, and couldn’t finish it. Obviously that’s okay, I am not here to pick on their opinions, but for ME, this book was pure magic. The geeky name drops that included Harry Potter and J.K. Rowling, and all of the adventure surrounding books and this wonderful bookstore, I just found myself wanting to read the book all of the time. I think it is written beautifully, and it made me miss my own days of working at a bookstore.

This book also contained a little sprinkle of things I love in stories; Fun friendships, mystery, a secret society, books within a book, a little bit of love, and a whole lot of amazing. I think as a booknerd, you should definitely check this out if you haven’t. Also if you have and found the beginning to be a little slow, then try to stick through it a little longer, you might be pleasantly surprised. It may not have tons of action, and it’s slow pace did sort of hit the rating for me as well, but it was still a great book.

Mr.Penumbra’s 24-Hour Bookstore get 4 out of 5 Metal Horns!!

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Coffee & Rant – Stop Being a Snob

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On this installment of my coffee & rant posts, I talk about snobs. You know who I am talking about. The people who think their choices in what they eat, drink, read, and listen to, are better than your choices. You know one. You possibly know a bunch of them. Well I am here to say: STOP BEING A SNOB!

NOTE: This indeed is a rant. I drop F bombs a few times, if you’re pure like a unicorn and can’t take it, Walk away now.

Here’s why I get irritated by the snobbery from people. What someone chooses to do with their free time, and frankly their god damn digestive system, has ZERO effect on your life. Honestly I know you can come back and say well “the mass consumption of this, that and the other is ruining…” Shut the fuck up. I will reiterate this for you, it has ZERO effect on your life. Take coffee drinking for instance, yes I have found many other places I enjoy more than Starbucks here, but once in a while if I want to walk into Starbucks and drink a frothy drink with 1000 calories, how is that any of your business? I am not chaining you down and making YOU drink it am I? But NOOOOO, the coffee snob is going to come in and rant “How can you drink that? I only drink coffee beans that have been partially digested by an Asian Palm Civet.”

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I have dealt with snobs a lot, because the Metal community tends to have a lot of them. Only their underground bands that no one listens to are real metal, and your love for (Insert Moderately Popular Band Name Here) makes you a poser. I already did an entire post about people whining about a band not being metal enough, so I won’t bitch about it right now, but again, What I listen to, isn’t going to make your world stop turning. Your heart isn’t going to stop, you won’t hear it if you don’t want to, so let me listen to whatever the hell I want, and you listen to your underground bands, but stop judging me for this shit. Stop judging people in general.

Which brings me to the book community. I actually really love this community because they are way less judgmental about what people choose to read, but the readers who are outside of this online book community tend to piss me off. Especially the adults. So the fuck what if I read Young Adult Books, Kids books, or anything else that you seem to deem unworthy? When people complain about popular novels…I’m sorry, did we have a freaky friday moment, and suddenly everything I read is being absorbed by your brain? NO? Then, silence! I will admit that I turned into a slight snob about people reading 50 Shades of Grey, but at the end of the day read whatever the hell you want. I read comic books too, and I am sure there are plenty of people who find that juvenile and stupid. Well good for you that you don’t know how to have fun, but I enjoy it immensely. I get it, you’re a pseudo intellectual who only reads classic novels written by dead white guys, but I don’t care what you read, just don’t try to pin point me as an idiot because I like to read many different things. Don’t think because I have a mass amount of Harry Potter books and collectibles that I am somehow less intelligent than you. I can tie my shoes and count to three, go fuck yourself. I work hard, so if I want I will play hard. That has no lasting effect on your life, other than those five minutes that you get worked up over what I am doing, but that’s on you. I will continue to do whatever I want.

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I get it, you snobs love to feel special, smart, and unique. You love to think so highly of yourselves that you can’t take the time to just let people simply enjoy the things they love. Well continue on your pretentious little lonely path, I will be over here, having fun.

My coffee is cold, see ya later!!

 

My Top 10 BookNerd Problems

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When you are an avid reader, there are some things that regular people will say or do that will just get under your skin. Then there are just somethings that come with the territory of being a booknerd. Here are my top ten booknerd problems. Are you ready for this? I am!

1. When you are reading, and someone asks “What are you reading?” 

Take note here, If I am reading a physical copy of a book, do NOT ask me what I am reading, just read the damn cover and then google it. If I am reading on my Kindle, do NOT ask me what I am reading, for the simple reason that it is fucking annoying!! Wait until I put it away and then ask. If you’re not even a reader, don’t ask me just to make small talk. I hate small talk. Just go away honestly.

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2. When people say they’ve watched the movie, and don’t need to read the book. 

This might be my biggest Booknerd Problem. That is the dumbest thing someone can say. The story you see on the big screen could never ever live up to the books. Even the movies I love that are based from books, I still love the books 100 times more! You have no idea what you are talking about, and you are making me angry for no reason. Sit down somewhere and think about what you’ve done!

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3. When you finish an amazing book, and can’t decide what to read next.

Booknerds, you know what I am talking about. This happens to me quite often. I will read something amazing, and then everything else I try to start seems so mediocre compared to the beautiful piece of fiction I just finished reading. Sigh. What can you do, but continue to dig through your piles to find your next amazing read.

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4. Waiting for the next book in a series… 

Anyone who is a reader and a serious booknerd will tell you, this is some serious business that requires the patience of a saint. Currently I am waiting for the next book in the Kingkiller Chronicles, The Song of Ice and Fire, and A Darker Shade of Magic. Luckily V.E.Schwab who wrote A Darker Shade of Magic is on point, and her next book is being released next month. As for George R.R.Martin and Patrick Rothfuss I will wait patiently because I know how amazing their books will be no matter how long we wait. I still remember waiting for the Harry Potter books to be released one by one and how incredible it was to finally have the book in my hands. But what am I going to do while I wait?!

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5. When someone says I read too much…

Well, all I can say to that is, you don’t read enough and you can suck a dick. I love to read. I always have from the very first word I learned how to read till this very point in my life, and until my very last day on this earth…reading will always mean the world to me. Some of you should try OPENING a book and reading it once in a while. Could be useful to the world.

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6. Moving…

When I moved from the USA to Germany the main things that were packed up and shipped were all of my books. People kept telling me I was nuts and that I should have given them away to charity. I don’t tell you to give a way the things you hold dear do I? Anyway once we moved to a different apartment here, I had to pack them up again, and move them…AGAIN. Now that we have about 600 books on our shelves…I am kind of dreading the day we will move again. Balls.

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7. Running out of shelf space…

We recently had to pick up some more Swedish puzzles (aka Ikea Bookshelves) to organize my books. Running out of shelf space is a common booknerd problem. They were starting to pile up all over the place. I have it under control at the moment. My book collection has grown with the local used book sales that seem to be happening more and more often now. I can’t help it when I get a giant stack of books for 20 bucks. So we haven’t run out of shelf space…yet.

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8. When a book is so amazing that you don’t fall asleep…

I have lost count how many times I have done this. Sleep is not a priority when I am hooked into a book. When I first read the King Killer Chronicles I was twitching in the morning because I stayed up all night reading. I have done that more than once. Call me irresponsible if you would like, but I always do my work, and I always study the next day. I mean I will probably start dozing off while I make dinner, but that’s besides the point. Some stories deserve that kind of attention.

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9. When someone asks you what a book is about, and your brain goes into overdrive…

This happens to me all the time. I gush about a book and someone will ask what it is about, and then suddenly my brain simultaneously explodes and goes blank. I want to say so much, but then I want to say so little because I wouldn’t want to spoil a book for someone else. Its hard out here for a booknerd.

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10. When your favorite characters die…

There are many characters to name, but within the Harry Potter series are the ones that truly broke my heart. I couldn’t bare with the death of Sirius Black and Dumbledore (and so many others.) I cried serious tears and yelled into the wind the words “J.K. Rowling…WTF?!” It gets seriously rough, and obviously I am a masochist because I just reread it, and get punched in the gut every single time. Again and again.

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So those are my booknerd problems! Comment down below and tell me some of yours!!

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