Coffee & Rant

Life & Blog Update

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Hellooooooo my precious geeks!

I know it’s been awhile since I have updated this blog and I have reasons so let’s jump right into those.

LIFE:  In February I was working an internship for a mobile games company that shall remain nameless. They screwed me over a couple of times mainly the fact that I went in for a full time contract( interview process was all about full time ) but they only offered me an internship in the end paying me peanuts for 40 hours per week. (they did this to a few people) I ignored my gut instinct and took it anyway. In a way I am glad I did because I met some lovely people, and 3 out of the 5 co founders were professional and cool. Then they told me my work was great but that I was too straightforward. Yet they let my coworker go because she was too shy and quiet.

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Needless to say it aggravated me. Aggravation tends to push my anxiety sky high. I am glad that is over but felt the need to put it here because it needed to be said. The aggravation they made me feel exhausted my brain completely. I barely read any books during that time. It’s a company that I feel has a lot of potential, but only if they start to learn from their mistakes.

To the present:  I found such a wonderful company to work for. Not only have they been kind and understanding, they are not afraid to take criticism. I feel for companies to move forward, you need to listen to your employees, and have them listen to you. Mutual respect and Real genuine communication is what will allow everyone to succeed. I enjoy the work I am doing, and am looking forward to helping them move forward. My gut instinct says this is a good lot of people. I have been reading more, and I genuinely feel happy.

Writing: I changed some aspects of the novel I am writing so it’s been consuming quite a bit of my time. If you think writing a book is hard, wait till you have to edit it.

This Blog: For a while now, I have been a little unhappy with the way I do things here. I also feel I have outgrown the process of using WordPress.com and will be moving it over to .ORG. I want more control over my blog in many aspects that this WordPress doesn’t quite allow. It’s a good starting point for anyone who’s new to blogging, but I am confident now that I can move it. SO this means for the next couple of weeks you may once again not see much happening here. My apologies in advance, but my idea is to better this for myself and for everyone! So don’t go anywhere and please stay tuned!

NOTE: to those of you who are waiting for me to review your books, those reviews are coming, I PROMISE!!

See you soon GEEKS!!

 

Books

October 2016 Reading Wrap Up

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Time for another monthly wrap up. October was a really great reading month for me. I sort of devoured quite a few books. I still have to write up a few full reviews, but I will give you a short run down of what I thought of each. So let’s begin.

My Lady Jane

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This book made me laugh quite a bit. It’s a historical fiction novel that took it’s genre straight to heart. It’s exactly why I loved this book so much. If I read a historical FICTION book looking for historical facts, then I might as well read a textbook. Fiction means it’s all made up, and man is this made up! It takes the story of the nine day queen, Lady Jane Grey and just freely runs with it. There’s a magic element to the story, there’s humor. I thoroughly enjoyed this novel and think if you’re looking for a fun read that this is it!

Rating: ratefive

How it Went Down

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How it Went Down was such a heart breaking read for me. It tells the story of the aftermath of when a young black man gets shot by a white man. It’s told from multiple points of view, and you get to know the story through the eyes of different witnesses, and friends and family. I wrote a full review for this book and I think it’s an important read that should be shared with so many people. Sometimes you need to step out of your little comfort zone, and learn something new. Read this book!!

Rating: ratefour

Milk and Honey

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This was a book of poetry. Powerfully worded, and moving poetry. I don’t know what else to say because this book spoke to me on a very deep level. Even if you typically do not read poetry, I still recommend this book.

Rating: ratefive

The Princess Saves Herself in This One

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Keeping with the theme of the previous book I mentioned, this was also a poetry book, but this one spoke to my very soul! It was just so amazing that I read it twice. I HIGHLY recommend it, and really think every woman should give it a glance at least once. This is another one that I don’t know how to explain why I loved it, because it touched my soul in a very deep and personal level.

Rating: ratefive

Kindred Spirits

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This was a lovely little novella by Rainbow Rowell. If you’re a fan of her novel FanGirl then I would say you would love this too. It was a fun quick read, and I enjoyed the main character’s mini fangirl adventure. It’s based around the premiere of the new Star Wars film, and how she’s one of three people waiting in line for the first showing at her local theater. I don’t want to go into much detail, but I had fun with it.

Rating: ratefour

A Head Full of Ghosts

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A Head Full of Ghosts was such a good creepy read!! It was the perfect October spooky read, but even though October is done, you should still pick this up if you’re in the mood to get scared. The story focuses on two sisters, and the older one is showing signs of possession, or is she? It was a wonderful mystery and many scenes left me wishing I hadn’t decided to read it before bed. Check it out!!

Rating: ratefour

Rat Queens Vol.3

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Rat Queens quickly became one of my favorite graphic novel series, but I held off reading this one because I saw that quite a few people seemed disappointed by Volume 3. Not to be swayed by the general public, I decided to finally pick it up and read it. Sadly I have to say it was my least favorite of the bunch. Not only has the art changed but I found the writing to be lacking. I still recommend this series, but volume 3 is just not the best one of the bunch.

Rating: ratethree

Mockingbird Volume 1

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I am constantly on the lookout for badass mother fuckers, especially of the female variety because well I find myself in those characters, also all females are pretty badass and I feel we need more female driven stories. The writer of this series took to Twitter to talk about her female driven comic, and then was harassed so bad by anti-feminist trolls that she left twitter. It was how I even discovered this comic series which Marvel cancelled before viewing the sales of the paperback edition. Well thanks to those anti-feminist trolls, the comic hit number one on Amazon for Marvel comics. Maybe Marvel will reconsider now? Maybe not. But we need these female driven stories!! Comics are not just for guys and any dude who thinks otherwise needs to get a reality check. I really enjoyed this series, and highly recommend it!! Maybe we can save it!

Rating: ratefive

Black Butler Vol.1

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I’ve been trying to read different Manga, and seeing which ones stick. I enjoyed this strange story. I read it in German, because simple language works best for me at this point, but I still thought it was fun and unique. I may pick up volume two this weekend! If you want to recommend any Manga, please comment down below!!

Rating: ratefour

Alcatraz vs. The Evil Librarians

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Honestly, I don’t know if I can eloquently explain how much I just did NOT like this book, so I will probably take a less than eloquent path. I started this series with high hopes. I love Middle grade adventure series and this just sounded like such a unique idea. The unique idea is why this isn’t getting one star, and that hurts to say because I typically adore Sanderson’s writing. This was just trying too hard to be something that it isn’t. I found myself rolling my eyes quite a few times. It was difficult not to make Harry Potter comparisons when the main kid was raised outside of the magical world he belongs to (orphan), and then you had a side character who was highly interested by ordinary items, but they still confused him (sounds like Arthur Weasley and his fascination with muggle items to me) Don’t know, it just felt somewhat forced storytelling after the first 30 pages, and I lost interest rather quickly. I will not continue with this series.

Rating: Metal Horns

The Stranger Game

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This book was sent to me the publisher, but this in no way impacts my views.

I want to write up a full review of this novel because it certainly deserves one. I think if you are looking for a mystery novel with twists and turns, then you will like this fast paced YA read. I read it in one day, and I have no regrets. I will be posting a more in depth review soon, spoiler free of course!

Rating: ratefour

Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone

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Again? YES! Don’t judge me asshole!

I love this series, and recently bought the second illustrated edition. Was going to read it, and then thought to myself, “Well why not start a reread?” and so I did. It doesn’t take much convincing to read this series.

Rating: ratefive

In total I read 12 items in the month of October. I am not sure how much I will get to read in November but I am only 8 books away from meeting my goodreads goal for the year. What did you read this month?

Book Reviews

A Head Full of Ghosts – Book Review

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Note: The publisher sent me a copy of this novel, this in no way impacted my opinion.

Summary: The lives of the Barretts, a suburban New England family, are torn apart when fourteen-year-old Marjorie begins to display signs of acute schizophrenia. To her parents despair, the doctors are unable to halt Marjorie’s descent into madness. As their stable home devolves into a house of horrors, they reluctantly turn to a local Catholic priest for help, and soon find themselves the unwitting stars of The Possession, a hit reality television show. Fifteen years later, a bestselling writer interviews Marjorie’s younger sister, Merry. As she recalls the terrifying events that took place when she was just eight years old, long-buried secrets and painful memories begin to surface and a mind-bending tale of psychological horror is unleashed.

Creeped out yet? you will be…

Review: You know the deal with my reviews, I keep them spoiler free because I want you to enjoy the novels as much as I do. So feel free to continue reading. This book was the perfect creepy read for the month of October, but it was generally a great creepy read. You will feel chills up and down your spine, and you will feel slightly unnerved. I went in thinking, “Well Stephen King thinks it’s scary, so maybe I should go unbox one of my teddy bears before I begin.” I didn’t actually unbox them, but I probably should have.

You know what’s the scariest part of this? That so much of the story revolves around those two sisters, Marjorie and Merry. Kids can be super creepy. (Remember the shining?) As I got deeper into the story, the more disturbing it actually became. The way Marjorie acts leaves you wondering “is she possessed by demons?” or is it really that she has schizophrenia that’s not being treated properly for a girl her age?  You well spend a lot of time second guessing yourself. You will THINK you know where the story is headed, but you have NO idea where it actually ends up.

I read this story many times right before bed, and if you are sensitive to these kinds of stories, I would say DON’T DO IT! Many scenes will leave you all out of sorts. Or maybe I can’t speak for everyone but it’s just how I felt sometimes, and of course if you’re reading a scary book, you want to feel that way. Humans, we are weird. haha

I will say that when the tv show aspect kicked in, that some things were a little repetitive, but it didn’t ruin the story at all. The ending, disturbed me, and really creeped me out, and once you read it, please feel free to contact me so we can chat about it because…it’s great in my opinion what Paul Tremblay did there.

I give this novel 4 out of 5 Metalhorns!!

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Book Reviews

The Female of the Species – Book Review

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This book was sent to me by the Publisher. This in no way influenced my review or thoughts on this novel. This is spoiler free, and short and sweet as most of my reviews are. I don’t want my opinion on a novel to spoil the story.

The Female of the Species by Mindy McGinnis is going to come for your emotions, your expectations, and your soul. I wasn’t sure what to expect when I started reading this–A story similar to Dexter where the killing is done to those who some may say deserve it? It’s so much more than that. This book takes you on the ups and downs of being a female in a world where many times that means you look like lonely prey.

You learn right away that Alex is a killer. Her sister was sexually assaulted and killed, and the man who did it walked free for lack of evidence. It’s a story we have all become a little too familiar with, but Alex takes matters into her own hands. She murders that man in a brutal way, and never gets caught. That’s where the story really kicks off.

The Female of the Species is told in three points of view. One being Alex, the other is Peekay, and then Jack. Peekay and Jack sort of bring Alex out of the shadows and the social isolation she’s placed herself in because she feels she cannot be trusted around other human beings at all times. One night and one incident sort of brings them together, and a few other side characters as well. This book examines rape culture, the female anger that we feel when we are not heard or when perps walk free when they should spend years and years behind bars, and a closer look at slut shaming and the affects it may have. You get the view of the angry, the innocent, and the guy who doesn’t realize his words and behavior are shitty. Taking a look at the “boys will be boys” line of thought.

The writing is magnificent and the different POV’s were done really well. I feel that this is a book that should be read by young men and women, and should not be taken lightly. The subject matter is tough to handle, but look at the news today, it’s all around us.

A quick note: The book says that it is ages 14 & up, but I feel that some of the crass speech and even subject matter may not be for every 14 year old. I would advise that people take the maturity of the younger teens into consideration before handing them this book.

TRIGGER WARNING: It’s been made obvious by my review that rape and sexual assault is the main topic. There is also animal abuse and child molestation within the pages of this book, so please be aware if those are triggers for you.

I give this book 5 out of 5 metal horns!!

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Writing Update

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Many people know this about me, but some may not. For a long time I wanted to be a writer. I have always been an avid reader, devouring book after book to keep my imagination running, and kept thinking to myself “I can do this too.” I wrote in journals and I have a huge folder filled with angsty poetry from my teen years.(That should be locked in a vault somewhere to be honest) It wasn’t until last year that I started writing my first book.

What many people don’t tell you about heading down this path, is the ridiculous amount of self doubt and insecurities you will begin to feel. On top of that there are going to be other people who will doubt you and be complete assholes about it. When you tell someone “Yes, I am writing a book.” Not many people will take you seriously. I can see it in people’s eyes where they say in that fake ass sing song voice “That’s nice.”

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Well I decided that this was something I wanted to do, and so I did. I had notes everywhere, and one evening I just sat down and started typing. It was so freeing to finally get those ideas, characters, and words down. Entire scenes popped up in my head at all hours of the day, I was so excited to be writing this story. It took me a few months to get 50,000 words down. May not sound like a lot for most writers, but for me it felt great. Suddenly though I was hit with an overwhelming amount of self doubt. It was crippling. My head was filled with thoughts like “What if NO ONE reads this?!”, “What if this is shit?!”, and “What if people hate it?!”

My mind became so wrapped up in those thoughts that at some point, I left my book hanging. It was like this fat ghost just hanging over my head throwing things and trying to get my attention. Then I realized that I spent so much time thinking those horribly negative thoughts that I didn’t stop to think “Well what if people think it’s funny?” or “What if people love it?”

The truth is not everyone is going to love what you do. Even the most popular writers have random strangers on the internet telling them they’re shit. That is why I am here to tell you that it really doesn’t matter what they think. If writing makes you happy, then do it. I took that message from Jenna Moreci.

So I am reworking some scenes, and actually rewrote the entire first chapter of my book. The excitement is back, and I moved my word count up to 56,000 words and I plan to bring it up even more. Mind you this isn’t the only story in my head. I am currently made up of so many fictional characters waiting for their chance to get placed down on a page, and I am looking forward to doing just that.

Remember, it’s okay to dream, and it’s okay to work hard to make those dreams a reality, no matter what people fucking think. THIS IS YOUR LIFE! Do what you love!!

I really hope to share my book with you one day. Till then you can read these two parts of a short story series I started and didn’t continue because of that asshole self doubt! I think I will try to continue this one again as well. GET SHIT DONE JOANA!!

Part One

Part Two

Book Reviews, Books

Warbreaker – Book Review

If you have been following this blog for a while, then you know that I don’t like to over share information about a book when I write my reviews because I’ve had a story spoiled before because a reviewer decided to chop down every detail of a book. I will give you a nice rundown and then my rating. Let’s jump into it.

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Warbreaker by Brandon Sanderson – Book Review

Brandon Sanderson is probably best known for his Mistborn series. I actually did not love the first book in that series and almost never gave him another try. Then I read The Rithmatist, and suddenly I was in love with his writing style. That is when I decided to give Warbreaker a shot. Warbreaker is about two sisters. These two sisters are princesses and they live in a world where people who die in glory come back as gods known as the returned. These gods live in a pantheon in the capital city of Hallandran.

In this world the magic system is called BioChroma, and deals with breaths and colors. Sounds insane? That’s because Sanderson’s mind and imagination is on a whole other level than ours. It is a really intriguing and beautiful magic system, and that is something I remember even from the Mistborn book. He is just really amazing with magic systems and world building. The whole idea of the gods and the pantheon gave me Greek mythology vibes and that was really cool.

Now the story goes back and forth between Siri, Vivenna(the two sisters), Lightsong, and Vasher. I loved these characters but I have to say the self doubting god Lightsong is my absolute favorite. He’s got sarcasm for days, and really questions his own identity as a god, and questions people’s faith in him. While Vivenna and her uptight ways was possibly the most boring for a while. There are a lot of political aspects in this book, but once again Sanderson knows how to write this in an interesting way.

I did find this book at 652 pages to be a bit long, but that’s never really stopped me from reading anything, the problem here is that it is a bit slow paced for a fantasy novel. Which is where it lost a star for me. Other than that the story is wonderful, filled with plot twists and crazy characters. Also I hear this story sort of connects to the Words of Radiance story from Sanderson. I will let you read it to find out how it does that.

 

I highly recommend this book, and it’s made me really appreciate Brandon Sanderson’s writing and storytelling. This gets 4 out of 5 Metalhorns from me!

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Books

J.K.Rowling Doesn’t Owe You SHIT

You’re thinking, “ANOTHER Harry Potter Post?” Yes and if you don’t like it you are free to read something else entirely. Since you clicked on the link though you might as well stay for the long haul. I always feel the need to state this though, don’t bother trying to comment with hateful words, because I moderate the comment section, and they won’t appear anywhere. I also won’t bother to respond. JKRowlingThese are my opinions, if you want to share your own, start your own blog. It’s been a couple of days since I finished Harry Potter and the Cursed Child. I have my review up and I said what I needed to say. Or so I thought.

Then suddenly, people started bitching left and right about The Cursed Child scriptbook, and it started to leave a sour taste in my mouth. Of course, everyone is entitled to their own opinion and feelings, but it is when those opinions and feelings start to show your sense of entitlement that I start having some serious issues with what you have to say. To put it mildly, J.K. Rowling doesn’t OWE YOU A FUCKING THING. I know some of you are going to really hate how I say these things, but this is aimed at all of those people tearing into Cursed Child, being rude, condescending assholes about it and towards people who actually love it, and so deal with my opinions about how I see all of you as well. If you feel angry, maybe that’s your conscious talking.

ALSO: Please Note there ARE spoilers ahead, read at your own risk.

“This is only a SCRIPT!”

Yes. Yes it is. For months, it has been promoted as a script, Rowling herself said more than once on social media that it is a SCRIPT and not a novel, and the word SCRIPT is on the cover. Yet somehow your dumbass brought that book home and still decided to go “Huh? This is only a script?!” I’ve heard of captain obvious but I guess you’re captain oblivious. What the hell did you think you were going to get when the book itself is only 330 pages and the word SCRIPT is on the cover??!!! Open your damn eyes at least. It seems a little unsafe to be out in the world with your eyes closed. Watch your step.

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Rowling Owes Us a Book

You know who’s saying this a lot? The youths. I know I am not old, but I am older than a lot of people who are a part of this online book community, and the ones most upset by this play, or script are the youngins. Especially the overly entitled ones who have never heard the word “NO!” a day in their lives. Your entitlement is showing, and you need to turn that shit down 20 notches. Rowling doesn’t owe you anything. You made the very conscious decision to buy this book, it is NO ONE’s fault that ONE: You really thought you were getting a novel, TWO: you have NO idea how to read a script, and THREE: If You do know how to read a script and don’t like it, she STILL doesn’t owe you shit. That is not the way the world works.

Harry Potter doesn’t seem like Harry Potter in this!

This is another thing I am picking up from a lot of the younger crowd, and I can excuse this one a bit because in my opinion they’re either still teenagers and haven’t been handed a sucker punch to the gut of life, or they are in their early twenties and are still too close to their teens to realize, you change as you grow up. As a teen and well into my early twenties I was shy, extremely quiet, and overly nice to absolutely everyone. At 30, I am still not the most talkative person on the planet, but I learned that being overly nice is an open door for people to stomp all over you. So I am way more careful about who I allow in, and I have also built a stronger backbone. You will think twice before being an asshole to me, because honestly I’ve gotten really good at taking no one’s shit. Also as a teen I went through some rough moments, and those moments also molded my life into what it is. That is a hard fact, life changes you. This script has made Harry so real to me. I knew he had to be struggling with life as an adult. Also when you’ve had a father figure for maybe a day, you probably have some trouble trying to figure out parenting, especially when your child sort of resents you and all of your fame and glory. You have literally set up your kid for failure by saving the world. How shitty must that feel? And maybe you’re thinking “He only seems to have trouble with Albus, not the other kids.” Well kids are different. My brother and I may have similar personalities but we deal with certain things differently. I know siblings who barely get along or even see each other because they’re complete opposites. Two kids from the same parents will not always come out the same in the personality and the how to deal with life departments. It is pure fact, and if you have siblings, you know that. But back to the main point, YES Harry is different, but you will be too in your mid thirties, just wait for it.

This is too far-fetched

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This one deserves to be started off with a major fucking eye-roll. SERIOUSLY?! THIS is far-fetched. The completely secret magical world is cool with you, but this is too much?  Where the hell do we draw the line in our imaginations anyway? confused

In a world where there’s a secret shopping street for wizards in the center of London, where children are just allowed to fly around on brooms and play a dangerous sport, where a troll gets taken out by three 11 year olds, where a ghost is called Moaning Myrtle, and where there’s a MASSIVE FUCKING CASTLE that no one but wizards can see, you’re having a hard time grasping the fact that the little trolley witch is the one who keeps the kids onboard the Hogwarts Express? I mean didn’t you ever wonder who took care and watched all of those kids onboard the train? The only time there was an adult onboard was with Lupin. The rest of the time everyone seemed pretty unsupervised. All the prefects in the world aren’t going to stop kids from being kids. So there had to be some sort of safeguard in place. You can’t believe that Voldemort has a wicked daughter out in the world?  I highly doubt he got it on with Bellatrix, pretty sure this was done in some other way, and it would also explain her unrelenting OBSESSION with him, because if you never noticed, she didn’t just follow him, she LOVED little ol Tom Riddle. I think we received a more in depth look into why.

You need a dose of Imagination

I am going to tie this off nicely with a very quick tip. You NEED a vivid imagination to read this. It is a script so details aren’t going to be there. You need to try to picture a lot of things even more than when reading a regular novel. Scripts are brought to life by the actors and the stage set. There were some aspects of the script where I needed to stop and think about it. For instance, the time traveling seems to have changed drastically from when Hermione used a time turner, but in the story we are more than two decades past that, and this particular time turner isn’t like the Ministry assigned ones that Hermione used, so maybe the magic involved and technicalities are different. This seems more Doctor Who inspired and filled with paradoxes and fucked up alternate timelines. I can dig it. Also, the polyjuice potion that seemed to be brewed in a day? I have come to two separate conclusions on this: ONE is that it was already brewed and they just added the essence of whomever they were turning into or TWO, Potion brewing has made some strides and this can be brewed much quicker. It is not hard to grasp people, I mean you can fit an entire computer into your damn pocket or wear it around your wrist. Imagination will take you far!! That’s just fact. If this seems lackluster to you, then you just may need a dose of imagination. Too bad that doesn’t come bottled then huh?

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